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Literature
Our Marathon
Trailing on the very back lines -
I know I could run faster but
I'm going to stay with you because
you're the only thing I care about
you're the only reason I'm
running this marathon
Wheezing for breath even though
my pace is gentle and slow;
I'm losing my touch because
you're in my presence,
filling the atmosphere effortlessly
and now we're running faster
Grab my fragile hand in yours;
doesn't matter if they're sweat slicked
as long as we're connected when
we're running through those gates
and we scream for the sake
of screaming with joy!
And the clouds darken a dull grey
we don't care because we're vibrant enough
droplets pour down, hitting our pale faces
and we laugh and chase the downpour
and my hand is still firmly
clasped in yours -
salty drops are leaking from my eyes
not from the rain but from the storm inside!
Can't seem to push my body
away from yours in this race.
Smell of sweat hangs in the air
but we're not bothered!
Because all there is in existence now
is you and I and t
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Literature
Far Fetched Fantasy
Breathtaking sunset lined with subtle tangerine
melded with magenta and crimson,
our heads creating a heart shaped shadow
within the first break of the cold February dusk
A bruised heart's calling is whining softly,
hungry and tired of being mercilessly left alone
yet it cannot give in to it's true feelings
for that would surely cause catastrophe ...
Now the wind ruffles your thick chocolate hair,
the last glimmer of the sun highlighting your eyes
you possess such jade eyes, like no one else
I long to and yet fear staring into them.
Atmosphere stiff with romantic tension,
and yet I find it strangely comforting.
I embrace this nothingness, this dream;
a far fetched fantasy of you holding me.
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Literature
Screams Run Free
Forcing myself to pretend for your sake
Just grin and laugh even though it aches
Giggle when tears were running down my face
Can't get myself out of this cold, empty place.
My mind has sheltered itself from your touch
not like I'd ever possess that kind of luck
to dot tender kisses on your swan's neck.
Do you realise it's me you try to break?
You must intentionally try to hurt me
because I've never been so down before
I've never been this suicidal for anyone
because I never let myself,
however now I let the screams run free,
and screech, yell for eternity,
can you hear my hoarse voice crying your name?
It's choking with pure emotion,
but you never knew and you never will.
Even so I adore you still! And I
wish you needed me like I need you.
Because now what am I supposed to do?
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Literature
Myself for a change.
I am the kind of person you'll be fascinated by for a brief while, then walk away in pursuit of a new obsession. Tossed around like a doll, I silently let people do this, knowing I'd never get a way out of this anyway. If I can just wait until I'm old enough to run away; to leave the country for good, then I'll be okay. A small part of my tells me this would do no good but I can control it for my freedom's sake.
My obsession with one person and one person only leaves me catching my breath in my shock and self loathing. She probably sees me as a cling on friend, always wanting attention, and I suppose I do crave attention. Hers and hers only. She brings out both the best and worst in me, and it infuriates me. It doesn't stop me wanting it though. I could never get angry with her, but I do with all the others. She is the most beautiful thing to me ... her shining green eyes, her boyishly cut chocolate hair, her milky pale skin in contrast to her vibrant personality. That's what we are ..
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Literature
The Ashes
I see them glitter at your encased body
Cold light complimenting blinding sadness
Do they really love you this much?
Or is that just more of the façade
Cold blue lips and blazing fire,
blending as you are destroyed
Oh how they weep for you
a heart reached for but misunderstood
And now I know they never wanted what I wanted
never needed what was my life support machine ...
but they still could take you from me so,
They must be something I'm not
to be loved by you even though they hurt,
they broke, they stole, they took
every piece of you and me and burned it
with your heart.
Even the memories of you and me
they were taken away, and
all it took was a push down stairs
and then even the ashes burnt to dust
taunting me.

I try so hard to contain my deep rage
and refrain it from reflecting in my eyes.
The tears that fall from them
taste loving, yet bitter
and the flames roar and tempt me
to fall into the fire because
it's tiring playing with it anyway.
Telling me to just give in b
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Literature
I Wrote your Name in Lipstick
I remember the anger,
the fiery rage, the passion,
calls of my name,
but I shut them out,
directed by my intense loathing
and the fire that consumed me
I remember tearing down the curtains
I didn't know what I would do next
but I did something anyway.
I remember scrawling on my skin
random lines of definitive destruction,
carvings of masochistic glee
I remember fraying the edges
of the obsidian duvet with a sharp knife,
remember sweeping all the items on the desk
to the floor, watching them break
with pure madness whirling through my mind,
as I destroyed anything I ever needed
but there was one thing I couldn't ...
couldn't bring myself to remember doing,
which I blocked out because,
because I guess it hurt too much
to recall fully from the depths
of my twisted mind.
I remember the bitter taste
taking over my mouth
as I completed this deed,
and I remember punishing myself
verbally for this long afterwards
as I sunk into the depression it brought.
But strangely, I do not remember
actual
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Literature
Liar's Remorse
I want you to read my cracked lips,
as these tainted words are forced from
my kiss bruised mouth and into the air.
Three words, uttered so falsely in
the heat of a summer in a life of winter.
Those kisses don't mean I love you!
I know that you may feel betrayed
like you spent your last dollar
to the treacherous fruit machines, but,
Weary of pretending, I have to inform you
that a brush of lips, and clasping of hands
does not damn mean I love you really!
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Favourites

Literature
The Berliner
Sick of writing about the pianist,
she leaves for Berlin and makes her
home next to the absence of a wall
She contemplates the American Embassy
and changes her cigarette brand
She sets out walking
and considers percentages of lives,
eats alone, begins to consider meat as flesh,
removes paintings from their frames
and in their place hangs mirrors
Calling home small voiced
she asks after family and friends
politely, washing dishes as she does so,
the phone in the crook of her neck
She makes no friends, does not make love,
resents nothing and leaves no
holes in people's lives
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Journal
Poetry Contest - Theme:Sudden Death!
Hi! So, I decided to make a contest. :P Yeahh. A poeeetry contest. Wow, bet ya didn't know that, did you? :sarcasm:
Yeeah, anyway. The theme for this poetry contest is 'Sudden Death'. Ever been put in a situation in which you had to pick an option quickly or you were screwed? If no, d'ya reckon you could write about it? Yes? GOOD! :D We need more people like you in the world. ;)
All submissions are open as of now! Just note me with a thumb to the deviation, the note titled 'Sudden Death Contest Entry'. :D It's that simples!
Unfortunately, being thirteen and having awful parents, I have nada cash for prizes. :( I hope you'll enter anyway! *sparkly eyes* I'm appealing to your better half here. :/
The deadline is July the 8th, which gives you quite a bit of time. I may extend it though. :D
Good night; if you have any questions note me! x
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Literature
Rainbow
Rainbows are colors in our life
they make people have different emotions
every color means something to everyone
but could someone explain the colors?
Red is piercing flames of burning fire
Orange is wild paint on the wall
Yellow is the bright beautiful sun  
Green is freshly cut grass
Blue is the roaring waves in the ocean
Purple is a pretty flower growing in the spring
If everyone knew what the colors meant
then we would love the rainbow
but there is no pot of gold,
at the end of the rainbow
The treasure is what the colors mean to you
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Literature
Forgotten
I feel left behind
left in my own shadows of darkness
to think about being alone
I hate that feeling
I try to walk out of my shadows
but something is holding me back
I should speak up
let my voice be heard, but I don't
I feel alone in this dark cold world
but there is another feeling
that explains everything I feel now
What I am feeling is forgotten
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Literature
Invisible
As I walk through the halls
People push at me
People don't hear what I have to say
and people don't see me
I am invisible to the world
I sometimes wonder what it would be like
To wonder when people notice me
I guess I'll wait
They brush my feelings aside
No one listens to what I have to say
They have no time for someone they can't see
I wish they had time
As I walk in their shadows
I ask myself
What if I walked into the bright sunshine
No, that could never happen
I guess I'll have to be invisible, for now.  
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Literature
Understand
I sometimes don't understand people
Why what they do makes them
Sometimes for a good thing
and at other times not so good
What I feel sometimes is
I want to open someone up
to see why they do things,
things the way they do
But, I don't find anything
I get frustrated
Why there's nothing there to find
but what I really realized is
I've just killed the person
So I think to myself
I'll never find my answers now
never find why they do things
The way they do.
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Literature
Moving On
I'm tired of dealing with you
And everything that you do
When it comes to notes, I don't want them
When it comes to you, I don't need you
You think you are scaring me
But I'm not buying it
You'll all talk when it comes to this
That gets you no where but hell
You put on a show for me
But I can see through your mask
Your doing this all for attention
To make yourself look better, but your fooling no body.
I put my foot down,
I am done playing around here
I don't need you anymore
I've moved on with my life, without you
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Literature
runaway
i only feel whole when im with you.so i say, lets leave this place of shattered dreams and broken memories.lets find a new place where we can start anew with one another.we can escape from this dreaded place and live.nothing, and certainly no one will hold us back.we'll live each day as we please and make new memories.lets runaway to our own piece of heaven.a place where i can spend eternity in your arms.a place where we can start our lives as one<3
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Literature
Adore the words
With words we may be never bored
With words lay meanings to be explored
With words tell riddles and be implored
With words religious will praise their lord
With words generals shall rally their horde
With words we barter so as to afford
With words deceitful become abhorred
With words say, "love" and become adored
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Literature
Winter
The glistening white
Surveying childhood play time
Slowly falling down
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Literature
SWEET WISDOME FROM NATURE
Listen softly to the wind. It whispers of His love. The sun’s warmth bring you comfort. Embrace the beauty of nature that’s all around us.  Take everyday as a precious gift. Take time to watch the sunset and sunrise., every chance you have. Let the swaying of the trees calm you.  Listen to the music of the birds sing their songs. Follow the flow of the river as the fish swim side by side in a row.  Soar through the clouds with a flock of the birds. Feel the touch of the earth, on the sole of your feet. Feel the cool breeze touch your skin. Draw in love that is all around you. Find small things and way to be grateful. Try to cherish the time, you spend with your family. When you feel like your drained reach toward the Heavens and rest in His arms. Remember that you’re always loved. Be open and ready to what His plans are. No matter how hard  it gets never close your heart off of Him. Take time during your day to talk with Him. Don
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Literature
Leaving Soon.
I'll be leaving soon
Be gone two weeks
to build the Kingdom
and lost souls, I'll seek.
But when I'm gone
remember if nothing else.
I love you fully,
more than all myself.
Above not leaving,
I wish no less
then to have a piece of you
amidst my missions mess.
Material things
are not as sweet
as the kiss I'll take
after I return and we meet.
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Literature
The Perfect Place
I walk this rough ground I've seen so many times
I could walk blind and know where I am
This place is where I belong
I wait every year just for that one month to come
That one month
Where I belong
I hear the splashing of the endless lake
And the jumping of the restless fish
This is where I belong
I breathe in the fresh vibrant scent of pine
And the sound of roaring boats
This is where I belong
I wander the path of rocks to the dock
To see the two chairs, one person is already there
I recognize the person
My grandpa
I sit down in the chair next to him and say
"This is the Perfect Place."
He'll nod in agreement
And we'll watch the sun go down together
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Literature
Sick And Tired
I’m so sick and tired
Of being sick and tired
Being told
What to do
What not to do
I can’t stand it anymore
I’m so sick and tired
Of everything
I just don’t want it
To be this way
To be no fun at all
To always crash the parties
To always be the one
The one to get in a fight
To always be the one
That gets the best grades
To always be the one
That has no life at all
To always be the one
That doesn’t have a heart
To always be the one
That is emotionless
To always be the one
That is negative
To always be the one
That is truly insane
To always be the one
That is psychotic
To always be the one
That is problematic
I’m so sick and tired
Of being sick and tired
I’m so sick and tired
Absolutely fed up
With being
The only one
That always is
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Hi! So, I decided to make a contest. :P Yeahh. A poeeetry contest. Wow, bet ya didn't know that, did you? :sarcasm:

Yeeah, anyway. The theme for this poetry contest is 'Sudden Death'. Ever been put in a situation in which you had to pick an option quickly or you were screwed? If no, d'ya reckon you could write about it? Yes? GOOD! :D We need more people like you in the world. ;)

All submissions are open as of now! Just note me with a thumb to the deviation, the note titled 'Sudden Death Contest Entry'. :D It's that simples!

Unfortunately, being thirteen and having awful parents, I have nada cash for prizes. :( I hope you'll enter anyway! *sparkly eyes* I'm appealing to your better half here. :/

The deadline is July the 8th, which gives you quite a bit of time. I may extend it though. :D

Good night; if you have any questions note me! x

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